I’m making some great leeway with my film. I’m finding a lot of good stories to follow, and hearing a lot of interesting things about my topic from many different people. This last week Julia and I went and talked to Sonam, the assistant director of the Tibetan Centre for Conflict Resolution, which is very much dedicated to improving relationships between Tibetans and Indians. The sad part is, they won’t be having any workshops while we’re here, but Sonam agreed to do an interview later on and even said they could provide me with some still pictures of past workshops. I haven’t started filming any people yet, as I’m still waiting for my consent form to be translated, but I am still collecting shots from around the town, which is fun but difficult because I want to film everything.
The hardest thing right now is that sometimes I feel guilty pulling out my camera to film things around town. I feel kind of like a spy, but not a cool spy; I feel like a spy who doesn’t want to be a spy, but doesn’t know how else to accomplish the mission. For Jeff, Brad, or anyone else with experience in documentary or photography, do you know what I mean? I’m not sure if I feel guilty because I am recording people and things without anyone knowing it, or if it’s because people do notice and I’m worried about what they will think of me. Or maybe it’s the thought that ultimately I will decide what my viewers see and I will, to a significant degree, control how my audience views and judges the people and places shown in the film. Of course, I want to use this film for good; I want my audience to love the characters and to learn from their examples, but I it’s scary to think that I could just as easily do the opposite. A camera is such a powerful tool. I think that’s what scares me the most about documentary…
So I will be careful as I proceed. I still want to make the film, and I feel that my intentions are right, but I recognize the need for caution. I am thankful to have Brad and Jeff helping me with this project and I am also thankful in advance to any others following this blog who are able to give advice. Last of all I am thankful for prayer because I am sure that I will be saying many along the way, asking for guidance and confirmation to what I am doing. Hopefully the product of all these things will be an amazing film that uplifts and inspires.
Thanks again to everyone for your support.